The topic of change has been a recurring theme in many of my conversations as of late. It seems that not only myself, but many of my friends are finding ourselves in a season of walking in the unknown. New territories, new challenges, new giants, just everything feels new and uncharted.
2019 so far has been a year of new beginnings in some of the following ways:
- Marriage – I’m a newlywed of five months and everyday has been an opportunity to learn about what marriage means between myself and my husband.
- Career – I made the move from the finance industry back into the legal field, which is my first job in the legal field since graduating. I share more on this in “My Graduation Testimony” post here.
- Ministry – My confidence just being in ministry has increased exponentially this year. God is constantly reminding me that the talents He’s given me are something to be treasured but not hidden.
- Family – This kind of relates to my first point but through marriage my family has grown so much, and I’ve gained a whole new set of family members that I’m still getting to know but have grown close to in such a short period of time.
…and that’s only naming a few. I’m someone (or like to think I am) who can adapt fairly quickly to change, but not when it seems like every facet of my life is non recognizable when compared to the end of 2018. But what kind of character would we develop if we aren’t pushed beyond our self-limiting comfort zone?
There’s Many Things I Don’t Know and That’s Okay
I recently told my husband, “don’t be so hard on yourself, I don’t expect you to know everything about being a husband because you haven’t been one before.” I don’t know what it means to be a wife, because I haven’t been one before. And not knowing that is okay, being able to admit that out loud is okay.
Going to God and saying, “I’m relying on you completely” has brought me such peace. Being able to say that out loud in prayer is totally new. I could admit it to myself, but saying the words out loud was taking a direct stab at my own pride – a form of pride I didn’t realize was so prevalent in my life. Being able to go to God with and in complete humility has been an experience that I wouldn’t give up.
When you are cast down and humbled, you will speak with confidence, And the humble person He will lift up and save.Job 22:29 (AMP)
I’m not saying “I don’t know” from a place of fear or being timid, I’m saying it from the perspective of having confidence in the God who will direct me and order my steps. I’m saying “I don’t know” from the perspective of being a child who goes to their Father for help. From this perspective I’m constantly opening myself up for growth, from this perspective I’m not overwhelmed, and from this perspective God remains exalted.
So to anyone reading who finds themselves in a season of change and/or the unknown, I pray that you will embrace every peak, every valley, every storm that threatens to overwhelm you, every triumph and victory. Just embrace it all!